I’ve been thinking a lot this week about what sort of birth I want. I know it’s a long time off yet but the weeks seem to be flying and there’s something niggling away inside me that says I would be much happier having this baby in the comfort of my own home.
Alistair isn’t convinced. He would rather I give birth in a hospital, surrounded by all the medical professionals who can be there in minutes if needed, and I get his point. What if something is wrong with the baby, would that extra time to get to the hospital make a big difference that I could live to regret? The chances of this are so small though and we live closer to the hospital than most birth centres are to their nearest hospital so we are in a safer position than most! After I gave birth to Harry the midwife said I would be an ideal candidate for a home birth as my labour and birth were so straightforward. They wouldn’t recommend it if it wasn’t safe, right?
After I had Harry I struggled to breastfeed. I spent 2 days in the hospital being told I couldn’t go home until we had established feeding or agreed to give formula. I was in an endless cycle of failing to feed, expressing, forcing the expressed milk into his mouth and then topping up with formula to a set amount. Looking back, I just think Harry was tired and wasn’t given chance to feel hungry. We also weren’t given advice on how to feed, just that we had to do it or stop trying. One midwife even told me, a day in of us trying, that if he hadn’t got it by now he wouldn’t and I should just stop trying. We went home, agreeing to formula feed, but once we got home and I was more relaxed we picked it up and eventually had 8 happy months breastfeeding.
At my booking appointment the midwife said that I wouldn’t be able to leave the hospital this time too unless baby was deemed to be feeding well enough. This worries me because I feel like the stress at the hospital was a hindrance not a help. If I was at home maybe things would be easier. I also love the idea of being in my own house, having a cup of tea in my own mug and a shower in my own bathroom before relaxing in my own bed with my new baby.
How far along? 17 weeks
How big is baby? Baby is the same size as an onion, hopefully a lot less smelly though!
Total weight gain/loss: I’m pretty much back at my pre pregnancy weight now which I’m so excited about! Now to start putting some weight on!
Maternity clothes? Some, mostly still in ordinary clothes though.
Stretch marks? Not yet.
Sleep: I’m sleeping ok but I’m getting stretchy pains in my bump when I roll over that wake me up. I had these with Harry last time so at least I know that it’s normal and means baby is growing.
Best moment this week: Hearing baby’s heartbeat for the first time.
Movement: I’ve had definite flutters, usually I feel them just before I go to bed, when I’m finally still and quiet after a crazy day running around after Harry. It’s so exciting to feel baby and reminds me about all the exciting things that are ahead of us.
Food cravings: Nothing in particular, I’ve been eating a much more varied diet though which makes a happy change to living on crumbs of junk food!
Sickness: Slowly but surely I seem to be feeling better. The vomiting is much less and I’m keeping food down. The nausea is still tough but without the vomiting it’s so much more manageable. I’m feeling really optimistic that this could be the start of feeling better and maybe even starting to enjoy my pregnancy!
Have you started to show yet: Yep
Gender prediction: I really don’t know, most people think it’s a girl.
Belly Button in or out? In but getting flatter, especially in the evenings when my belly seems to be huge.
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy, really optimistic that I’m starting to feel better and hopefully will start to get my life back.
Weekly Wisdom: Just keep swimming, just keep swimming… – Dori
Milestones: Hearing baby’s heartbeat for the first time!